Here's why I am taking the Alan thing so hard...
When I was dating Charles I finally felt loveable. I figured that my problems with social skills was a thing of the past. That I was no longer annoying, I was now girlfriend material.
Then, when things didn't work out with Charles I started dating Alan. He thought I was pretty, so it was obviously my personality he didn't like. So I am upset because now I am insecure, thinking I have a bad personality.
I am also having an identity crisis. I liked dating a hipper person, and I am questioning my square, mainstream image.
Maybe drinking night after night is the answer to my problems