I think I may be back to my breaking point when it comes to my weight. I ate a bag of movie theater style popcorn and felt so sick. I have felt sick a number of times from the crap I have been eating. I am already a bit depressed, I don't need to be adding to it by eating crap and by gaining weight and feeling tired and unattractive.
You wouldn't believe how ugly I look. Not ugly, but not pretty. I look so chunky in my uniform. I hate this feeling. My weight was getting to a point where I was not just passably attractive, but attractive. Now I think I am attractive if you like fat girls.
So I think my willpower is finally back. Thank goodness. Cross your fingers for me, K?