Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Compassion Fatigue

I don't like the way I feel right now. I feel quite overwhelmed, and am not able to keep perspective. Coming up I have:

A wedding that I am part of the bridal party
A new roommate that I have to clean for and get rid of furniture for
A surprise party out of town
A tour at the beginning of the month and a new work schedule making me have to reschedule both the tours and my therapy
A room I want to make tidy and sex-ready just in case November is a good month for me ;)
Merchindise to ship for my friend

I am not able to see how lucky I am right now. My friend is in Fort Lauderdale with no power, an ailing dad and a destroyed rental car that she didn't insure, and my feelings are selfish, not wanting to help her with her business (something that would equal money in her pocket) and the people in Pakistan are at severe risk, and arent getting the aid they need! But I don't have it in me to care right now. Maybe I need to meditate. (I will, after I am done with everything on the above list)

mood: frantic

58 comments:

Satan said...

Can we still have compassion for you?

Diana Crabtree said...

Don't waste it on me, save it for people with real problems (so I don't have to)

Diana Crabtree said...

And on the bright side, I have more energy already since I have been working out and eating less :)

Satan said...

Well that's sounds positive, don't starve yourself though.

How have you been otherwise.

Diana Crabtree said...

You don't want to write back because I am pouty, huh? ;)

Well my word verification is horsepeo!

Diana Crabtree said...

I'm not, I am on a program by Shape magazine, a well respected health & fitness magazine. But I am sorry that I am going to make your IQ go down!

Diana Crabtree said...

I'm pretty overwhelmed :( But I am pretty good considering though :) Howabout you? :)

And I talked to boy #2, and he sounds very sane and nice, and I wasn't an idiot on the phone (not any more than usual) :)

Satan said...

Sorry, what, I don't understand that first bit... I MISS you
HA! Horsepeo, that's awesome. I had one the other day, where I was laying into someone, that said CIVIL. I posted my horrible comment anyway.

You will never make my IQ go down, hang on, how are you going to do that.

Diana Crabtree said...

You said that I couldn't lose weight because it was the same as your IQ and you would get stupider if I lost weight.

We all know it was an excuse to drop how BRILLIANT you are into the conversation:) (like I needed you to tell me)

oeuhhy! (thats what the horse says when he is peo-ing)

Satan said...

See! I'm getting dumber already, I totally forgot about that.

Well, it does sound great that this boy appears to be sane. *cross fingers*.

I still don't understand the pouty thing, but anyway. None of my WV are funny at the moment.

Diana Crabtree said...

I wrote the "you don't want to respond because I'm pouty" before you did respond, but you responded before I posted it.

You don't have to try to understand anything, because I can't :)

I miss you, Mr. takes care of real life, not just blogging :)

Satan said...

Ditto, it wasn't really real life I was taking care of. It was more to do with an 'action plan' type thing for my business. I've been wanting to develop a film related database of sorts and after talking to you it struck me that there was a way for it to pay for itself. Just another thing to add to my list of ten bazillion things to do in life.

Diana Crabtree said...

Can I take credit? Can I be the database muse?

Satan said...

HA! If you like. The database idea was already there and we were talking about new technologies giving the power finally to individual filmmakers, but there is a problem in that the money people still control distribution. It popped into my head how to solve that problem. Now I have two ideas that have become one and will hopefully earn some money. But yes, you can be my muse. (as if you weren't already)

Diana Crabtree said...

MWAH!

I apologize if I take a long time to respond, I am doing 3 things at once. (Including watching my favorite Bollywood movie that I just got in the mail- I own it now :) )

I think your idea is cool. i am proud of you.

Satan said...

Well, it's a little more complicated than that. There are a lot of stackholders involved who need to be convinced that it's both viable and good for the industry. The off-shoot of it is though is that independant filmmakers will get a better chance of distributing their films to a world-wide audience.

Such as your bollywood film, if you hadn't already seen it and known you liked it you wouldn't have gone to the trouble to order it (which puts dollars back into the pocket of the films prducer).

But that's enough 'business talk', I get enough of that in my own head.

What wree the other two things you were doing (hope one was dancing naked to the bollywood film).

Diana Crabtree said...

I am doing laundry, putting away laundry, airing things (blankets before winter) talking to you and watching the movie.

I like your work talk, sounds competent & powerful, prrrrrr.

Satan said...

You mean I finally dont sound like an idiot don't you...

...were you at least doing the laundry nekkid (back to being a fool)

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Diana Crabtree said...

Yes, I am doing laundry naked, otherwise how would I get all of my clothes clean?


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Satan said...

I just turn my clothes inside out and pretend they're clean... I think the last time I washed clothes was in early 1999. I probably should do a load or two, some of these things are just sticking to me now... that's how I invented the layered look.

WV = Clinix: The various places I have to go to get my various medications.

Diana Crabtree said...

Me too, but I thought it would be nice if the boy tomorrow saw me before he smelled me ;)

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Diana Crabtree said...

My (soon to be former) roommate is SO FUNNY! She is reading along with the subtitles melodramaticly :)

Satan said...

But what if it's the smell of Looovvve!




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Satan said...

That sounds funny... Why soon to be former?

Diana Crabtree said...

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Diana Crabtree said...

Because she is moving to DC at the end of the month :(

But I have a cool new one coming too (a clone of me though- scary!)

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Satan said...

Ahhh, yes, I think you posted about her. Cool, does that mean I get two for the price of one?

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Diana Crabtree said...

You want to blog her too? I am so hurt.

And BTW your word verification was vulgar

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Satan said...

Don't be hurt sweet heart, she'll never blog as good as you baby! I'll blog you all night long if you want.

Yeah, it was a little gross, just like your last one!


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Diana Crabtree said...

Blog whoever you want! See if I care! She won't key-stroke like I do!

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Satan said...

You're the only blogger for me, you know that, oh sure I 'look' at other blogs but they don't mean anything. None of their keystrokes make me feel the way yours do, you've gotta know that!

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Diana Crabtree said...

I don't believe you! I know you are blogging everyone in web-site!

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Satan said...

What do you want? A blog-ring or something, you knew this was an open blog-ationship. That still doesn't mean that you're not the best damn blogger in town, the first blog I blog in the morning and the last blog I want to see at night. I blog you, god-dammit, isn't that enough.

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Diana Crabtree said...

I just wish you could be MoBLOGonous!

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Satan said...

But don't you see baby I have enough BLOG for a LOT of bloggers, if I tied myself down to just one I'd get probably get bored and resent your blog, I don't ever want to do that to you, you're my best Blogger.

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Diana Crabtree said...

Is that so? Well guess what! I blog others too! You arent the only one! See how it feels when the tables are turned! Wheres your logic now?

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Satan said...

Yeah, I kinda figured that's the way it was, running around blogging whoever makes you feel good. But the thing is You never blog me anymore baby, why don't you blog me, I always have to blog you. See, you're just not committed to this blogaffair at all. So why are you trying to put the hard word on me. Maybe we should get together with another blogger and spice up our blog a bit.

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Satan said...

You got so bored of playing this game you went to bed?

Diana Crabtree said...

I only want your blog. I could never stand to share your blog with another at the same time. If you are blogging others, I just want to imagine you arent.

I can't take this anymore, I'm going to bed. If I had a choice I would blog you every minute of the day, but I can't, so I will be happy just knowing you are satisfied, even if it's not me blogging you :(

goodnight

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Diana Crabtree said...

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Diana Crabtree said...

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Satan said...

But at least let me Blog you one last time before you go...

Hehehe... Night Diana, MWAH. I hope you blog me in your dreams.



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Satan said...

god i could have no body other either

Satan said...

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Satan said...

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Diana Crabtree said...

Of course I will, like usual

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Diana Crabtree said...

Why are you making my neck warm again?

Satan said...

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Becuase it's fun and I like you!

Satan said...

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OK, OK, these are now getting really bad!

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Diana Crabtree said...

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Satan said...

I'm going to go now before it gets any worse.

Sleep Well!

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Diana Crabtree said...

goodnight

Satan said...

now please hear me cutie crass verifications halt.

Diana Crabtree said...

Please feel another lovely night

Satan said...

please pop xanax quickly sweetie

Diana Crabtree said...

I am going to have Bollywood bonding with my roommate tonight so I cant chat, but I always want to

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