The beautiful German wrote me today. Dr. T suggested I examine and weigh if the pleasure was worth the pain, to help me in deciding if I had made a good choice. Before I even opened the e-mail, when I saw that he had written I immediately knew that it was in fact worth it, because at that point I felt like I would still think it was worth it if he said "I am sorry, I am simply not interested in you."
The price of the pain would still have been worth it for the pleasure of spending time with a man who I clicked with and respected. That Saturday should help me through years of dating. It can be like a measuring stick in the dating world, I can remind myself: "This is what it feels like to click- you don't feel worshiped, you feel understood. You don't see him as an ideal, you see him as a person you like. You feel like two people, not two facades"
What did his message say? It was a short considerate sentance saying he is too busy to write and will get back to me. (and it had the word "kisses" in it! tee hee hee hee hee) I also recieved a note from Kareem. His apoligized for not getting back to me when I called him inviting him to hang out (BTW this e-mail was 4 days later...he didn't even call the day I invited him to say "sorry- cant come- make other plans") Kareem's latest e-mail was different than his past ones, it was much sweeter, but I still told him how I felt, that if he isn't really interested I would prefer he be honest, because his indifference is more hurtful than rejection. I can see a distinction between how the two men react to me...can you?