There are plenty of reasons that I have a hard time with dating. Today I recieved validation of something I suspected. Some people believe in soul-mates. Some believe that there are "many lids for each individual pot" which is what I believe. But I have sensed that I am a uniquely shaped ceramic, meaning there are fewer lids out there that will fit. Today I get the results of the Myers Briggs personality inventory, and learned that my personality type INFJ, is only 1% of the population! Thats rare pot!
It is exciting to read the results...I really feel it fits me. It suggests my personality type "has an unusually strong drive to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoys helping their fellow man" which is SO true, that is why so many people tell me I am "the best flight attendant ever" ;) . It also says my personality type is empathic and that most psychics are INFJs!
I also learned something bad and good at the same time. My depression type is andogynous, which means it is neither a masculine or feminine depression. If you were psychic like me you would know that that is a joke. Really it means that it is chemical and genetic, and that no matter how excellent my life skills are it will still come back unless it goes away on its own. This is disheartning because it takes some of the power I have away, but it is also a bit of a relief, because it means that times like now, when I am trying really hard to take care of myself, that the depression creeping back is for physiological reasons, and not my fault, so I don't have to feel like a failure.
Tomorrow is my birthday I will be 28 and couldn't be happier about it. I see it as a honor badge, I am approaching 30 so the way I think (adultish) is no longer weird, it is expected. Please send large quantities of cash in lieu of gifts.
mood: rested, better than this afternoon