Monday, May 30, 2005

The people who want me to succeed

These people want me to succeed:

My surragate mom Aunt and her beautiful 13 year old daughter, my cousin (She is my #1 suicide preventer- I know if I did it it would screw her up) they are coming from the north part of our state! 3 hour drive!!!

My 3 Best college friends (one from 3 hours away!!!!) And one's son.

My roommates mom & stepdad!

My art mentor and my unofficial art mentor

My grandparents

Of course they arent the only ones who support me, they are the ones who were able to get the time off. But some really important people to me are coming, and I am so touched.

I am going to print this out and have it with me to keep me from procrastinating

mood: loved, anxious

150 comments:

Anonymous said...

I want you to succeed too....and you will -- you have fortitude, and that's a hard thing to come by...

Richard

Drake said...

Hello again, Diana!

I kinda, sorta want you to succeed too... :)

I think we all need to be reminded from time to tim that we have supporters out there. It's just easy to forget at times.

Best Wishes!
Drake :)

Diana Crabtree said...

Thanks again Richard! The check is in the mail!

Drake, thanks too (kinda ;) ) Isn't it amazing how a person can be surrounded by phenomenal people, and not even see it? Now THAT is crazy!

Satan said...

I, of course, would like you to fail terribly - then we could hang out in Hell. Repeat with me, (like you're talking to a trauma victim) I can fail whenever I want, I just have to relax, not care, put a stupid smile on my face and anwser every question with 'Aardvark'.

Diana Crabtree said...

ROTFLMAO! Oh my god!

Satan, please dump your husband or wife, move to the US and marry me for real! You'll love it here, a large percentage of the population is just like those Hillsong people, you'll feel at home!

I just laughed so hard that the anxiety let up for like 3 whole seconds!

Satan said...

Oh, I'm not married... but my partner would hunt us down like Aardvarks and turn us into a mandolin and matching case. She'd then go on a world tour of Hillsong and raise enough money to shoot us into the space... preferably towards the sun.

Satan said...

Having re-read that, I'm not sure it was a backward way of saying Yes or a forward way of saying No.

Either way, I could never be so lucky as to marry a girl with a voice like a Wind-chime.

Diana Crabtree said...

But in America we have something called Mormans, so you don't have to marry just one person! I am already marrying Spider!

Come on! Be open minded!

Diana Crabtree said...

In America we have a saying..."have your cake and eat it too" (there is something else at the beginning of the saying that I can't remember...I am sure it's not important)

Diana Crabtree said...

OK, OK, you are a decent human being. My proposal was just my backward way of saying Yes, that is funny as hell

Satan said...

I think the beginning of that saying is "You can always"

So what you're saying is that I'd have a partner here in Oz and a wife in America, whose married to another woman. When do I wake up and realise it was all a lovely lovely dream?

Satan said...

Awwwwww...... See!!!!! I just woke up : (

Diana Crabtree said...

I'm sorry, but the only stringed instrument I am willing to be is a fiddle.

Satan said...

A fiddle!! In what style can I play you??? *wink*

Diana Crabtree said...

Gospel- thats what style ;)

Satan said...

Ah... Mendelssohn... on a fiddle! I understand ; )

Satan said...

Or do Americans use the Wagner version (aka here comes the bride).

Diana Crabtree said...

I was excited to see you wrote something else- I couldn't come up with a single witty thing to write back. Still cant.

Diana Crabtree said...

Were your comments a way to highlight the US eduation funding of Arts Education?

Satan said...

Hehehe - I think I'm being a little obtuse. Actually I think you'd be played in the Style of an Irish Reel. Deviously simple but energetic and with as much embellishment as the player can fit into it, something to dance to!

Satan said...

Were your comments a way to highlight the US eduation funding of Arts Education?

no... just a way to let me fiddle with you *snicker*

Satan said...

I think this is where Og would normally whack me with a high heel : )

Diana Crabtree said...

Your right! Good job, calling me an Irish Reel when my only way to defend myself is in Nigeria.

BTW, is an Irish Reel the kind that is a pre-cursor to bluegrass? because that is why I was willing to be turned to a fiddle for proposing to a demon.

Satan said...

I'm sure you can defend yourself just fine (maybe it's that you don't want to).

The Irish are definately attributed to inbreeding in the hills around Kentucky and their dulled minds slowly changed their folk music into bluegrass. I actually admire bluegrass (early, early bluegrass), it's really inventive.

Diana Crabtree said...

I adore bluegrass. My inbred Scots-Irish family from Missouri have passed down the tradition of singing bluegrass and irish drinking songs around campfires. For years I have visited a folk festival in Canada, I hope to this year too.

No, I can't defend myself. I work for a regional airline, I don't have the money for Manolos.

Satan said...

e-Manolos: Very cheap. I think I was right the first time...

Irish drinking songs are GREAT but I like the Airs a little better. A bit more soul needed to play them. But when you're at a Pub - Irish Reels are the best. We used to have a little band here called the Tinkers. Their flute player won the prize for best (Southern Hemisphere) Wood Flute player. They was sooo coool, especially when drunk in a packed Pub.

All our good Folk Festivals have turned into Yuppie fests. You can no longer sleep under the open sky with a guiness in one hand and a fine lass in the other.

Diana Crabtree said...

See- another good reason to move to the US

(except the folk fest is in Canada...hmmm)

Satan said...

So now we're running away to Canada together?

We'll hide in the deep Canadian forest, raise a dozen barefoot Childlers, and name them all Cletis - Even the girls : )

Diana Crabtree said...

So your on board? Lets bring your partner too. I like her (Someone who would literally cover the world for her man is my kind of person!)

Satan said...

Yeah, I'm on board. I'll have to ask if she's available for a one way trip to hick-dom. I think her actual answer would be - leave your credit cards and have a nice trip : )

Diana Crabtree said...

Hmmm, proposing marriage to a person LITERALLY on the other side of the earth in a commited relationship.

You know someone called me self-sabotaging once!

What? The credit cards would stay there? Hmmm, I need to think about this ;)

Diana Crabtree said...

Louis Vuitton doesn't just buy itself you know

Satan said...

Whoever called you that didn't understand the obvious depth of love you have for Satan!!!!

OK, I'll keep the credit cards and leave her the houses. Unless you want to come down under and we can raise children to play bush ballads on top of Uluru. I know a lot of people in Qantas ; )

Satan said...

The ones with fake stitching do!

Diana Crabtree said...

That sounds great. We can have our cake and eat it too. We will fund my appitite for handbags and stilettos by making our children tour folk festivals and teach yuppies how to play didgeridoos.

Satan said...

You eat handbags and stilettos? We caould make more money off that than the kids playing music!

Diana Crabtree said...

When you put your foot in your mouth as much as I do, you develop a tolerance.

Satan said...

ROTFLMAO

Diana Crabtree said...

Does Quantas sreve snacks? My airline is going to stop serving pretzels because it saves 2 million a year

Satan said...

Of course Qantas serves snacks... what type of cheap arse airline doesn't serve snacks? Qantas, on a 1 hr flight between Sydney and Canberra, will serve to the economy class passengers:

Gourmet savoury biscuits,
Anti-pasto dipping sauce,
An individual bottle of wine or can of beer,
a tea or coffee, and
a Wattle-seed Anzac biscuit.



I couldn't even think of flying without my Wattle-seed Anzac biscuit!!!!

Diana Crabtree said...

No vegimite? Geez! wonder the airlines are suffering!

Is that for real? Has Australia considered de-regulation? It works great! Just ask the pilots making $17,000 a year!

Satan said...

Our jet pilots are mostly ex-military. They're used to being looked after. Our government has deregulated but when it comes to wages the industry is so small that the crews of two (yes two)airlines here went on strike and shut down australian airspace. Funnily no-one touches their wages for the worse anymore : )

Diana Crabtree said...

I am SOOOO moving to Australia! (Do the Flight Attendants have to be from the military too?)

Satan said...

No military flight attendants here.

One of our friends (I have lots of Qantas friends) and her hubbie are long-haul flighties (Syd-Singapore mostly). They make, from memory, about $45-55K (US)a year each.

Diana Crabtree said...

OH MY GOD! I MUST get a job at that airline. But I bet I have to be an Australian citezen. HMMMM

I know I will marry a citizen for a green card. How do I get a Australian citizen to marry me...I remember something about dismembering myself in exchange for motorcycle helmets.

I have a plan!

Satan said...

have to be an Australian citezen indeed, but here's what you do...

Go to New Zealand and apply for citizenship. They are a bunch of soft liberal lefties and you're an American who 'hates' (even if you don't) the War in Iraq, they'll let you in. The following week you move to Sydney and I'll introduce you to the head of HR at Qantas. :) easy!

or, you could marry Satan - I'm sure my partner won't mind a marriage of convienence.

Diana Crabtree said...

Oh I see, so I would recieve political refugee status?

Hmmm, this is sounding kind of good. My friend told me that Greece considers 8 generations back citizens or something. If I had Greek citezenship I could work anywhere in the EU! I actually considered it, until realizing that as a citezen, they would probably want taxes, SOCIALIST taxes ;)

Diana Crabtree said...

A marriage of convenience and unrequited love sounds great, except for the whole being shot into the sun part.

Satan said...

In NZ, yes you probably would. they don't like us Right wing governments at all.

Who said it would be unrequited; Voice like a Windchime...

Diana Crabtree said...

OF COURSE it would be unrequited, because you are in a commited relationship. If you were in a commited relationship and my love for you was well...quited...then I wouldn't love you anymore and it would be unrequited again!

Satan said...

Point taken,

What if it was an open relationship, like you have with Spidey.

Satan said...

Yaaaaay for Di - Over 50 posts in a day.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

Diana Crabtree said...

Hell no Spidey and I DO NOT have an open relationship!

She is only with me. There is no other person in her life, no one who she writes every other post about how hot he is and how much sex he gives her. Nope, just me. Right Spidey????

Tee hee.

50 comments in one day? I would do this on your page, to return the favor- problem is, last time I did that, new visitors came to mine ;)

Diana Crabtree said...

And BTW, looking back I realize I really was "abrupt," but on my tiny airplanes I really see what a disability obesity is, and I can't feel anything but empathy for their situation, I disagree that morbid obesity is 100% what someone eats.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the check Diana! Where do I sent the handbags and stilettos?

Richard

Satan said...

I think you're fooling yourself - I think Spidey has a man on the side.

So now I have unrequited posts (because of someone else). Your got this thing a monogomy dont you? Yeah, me too!

As to the rest of the posts. The requited thingy, I'm sure if I met you and was available I'd fall for you in a second. The truth of it though is that you're just using me as a diversion from designing your tour. I see where I stand :(

Diana Crabtree said...

I can't tell you that Richard, I have to remain anonymous or my airline will fire me for ragging on its pillow and pretzel free policies.

Satan said...

No pillows either, get out, get out now!!!!!!

Diana Crabtree said...

OK now I want to marry you again I am laughing so hard!

Diana Crabtree said...

But the crews at my airline are so gre...Im moving to Australia.

Anonymous said...

Well, you obviously shouldn't risk that, Diana! I'll just hold onto the handbags and stilettos and you can pick them up someday in the midst of your "tour"..... i have to tell you, you make me smile a lot... I have a larger sense of humor than most men, and I'm always attracted to and impressed with a woman who has a sharp humor. Yours is on the edge of dangerous, and that's a slim blade to balance on. I find myself "pulling for you" daily...
and....I don't mind unrequited posts...as long as you still respect me afterwards.

Richard

Satan said...

Ummm....

Diana Crabtree said...

Oh my God Satan did you hear that???

tee hee hee

have you heard...I also have the voice of a windchime! :)

Diana Crabtree said...

Satan, He means it in a clean cut way!

Satan said...

The only thing I heard was that he is "pulling" for you daily with a large "Sense of Humour". But as long as you respect him in the morning!

Diana Crabtree said...

Its an American way to say "I'm cheering for you"

Satan said...

Yes, yes, I'm sure *grin*

But I agree with the fact you're pretty cool.

Diana Crabtree said...

OH GOD! ROTFLMAO I didn't see that Larger than average sense of humor

Satan said...

I hope not!!!!

Diana Crabtree said...

Awwww thanks Satan :) Tee hee hee

I think you have a nice sense of humor

Anonymous said...

Well, in a way it's saying "I'm cheering for you," but that more applies to an athletic competition or a contest. It's more, I'm touched by some of the things you write about. I'm impressed by the strength that you show in overcoming some things that would level many people....and I'm most taken that you do it with such a great sense of humor... so, that being all said, do you want to get married? ;) (We call that in America "kidding"....

Richard

Satan said...

Thanks mate!

Now remember, if anyone on the Internet offers to show you his large sense of humor (ugh Americans) you politely say to yourself "Do I want to see a large sense of humor today, no? Maybe I'll stay in bed a while longer instead".

Diana Crabtree said...

Richard do you have a house? (not kidding)

Diana Crabtree said...

LMAO Satan!

Richard your comments are so kind, thank you!

Satan said...

Hey Richard,

Thanks for clearing that up... Yeah, I'd love to get married!!!!

Anonymous said...

Ummm..I don't recall any offer to show anyone my larger sense of humor; I merely said I have such. Were I asked, it would have to be in the right place at the right time for the right reasons......

And...Diana? Yes, I do have a house, it is very tall and stands next to the ocean.

R

Diana Crabtree said...

Richard, don't fall for him...he is in a commited relationship.

Satan said...

Now you've Done it Richard, you'll never get rid of her now : )

Satan said...

I'll leave her just for you Richard! I have a place by a lake, a lake of fire : )

Anonymous said...

Diana, you are welcome, in all sincerity, larger sense of humor aside. It amazes me how reading your entries in the order you wrote them leaves me with this all too familiar feeling of "I've known this person." Actually I have not, but I have known and do know a composite of you, in two other people who have been or are in my life... and you succeeded in the most difficult thing for a writer to do...you connected with your reader, and made him want to know more and, also made him want you to simply.....succeed and find some true happiness and passion in your life...

I don't think I could ever marry anyone named satan, thanks...

Diana, though....that's a name from the Greek Gods, it's been the subject of countless songs and stories and poems...it rolls of the tongue seamlessly....

Warmly and sincerely,

R

Anonymous said...

Don't worry Diana, I don't fall easily....it isn't like I'm on a heavy horse about to scoop the fair maiden from the ground and ride off into Velvet Green with her....not yet, anyway.

R

Diana Crabtree said...

Richard...you know I am a goddess too? How did I give myself away...seriously.

You sure know how to give a compliment...geez

Diana Crabtree said...

Who are the two people that my writing reminds you of?

Satan said...

How did I give myself away...seriously: you're hanging around with Satan for a start... no everyone can claim that sort of social group.

and Richard... not even if I ask politely??

Anonymous said...

You didn't give yourself away as much as it just emanates from your words... you have this ability to move back and forth between first and second attentions....a rarity...that second attention being the narrow focus that excludes all the needless chatter and matter outside...

The two people are a woman I went to college with and a woman I know in the South who has a similar life to yours in some ways...

Why did you want to know if I have a house, I'm curious?

R

Satan said...

OK, OK, I'll sit quietly, while the adults have a real conversation, shall I?

Satan said...

Why did you want to know if I have a house, I'm curious?

Hehehehehe

Diana Crabtree said...

Richard, it was a reference to a recent post I wrote. I was joking- thats why Satan is laughing.

And "first and second attentions" woah! I am enjoying this VERY MUCH!

Richard, you do know I have a body like J-Lo don't you?














Jennifer Lowenstien, the 60 year old down the street

Diana Crabtree said...

(another earlier post reference)

Satan said...

J-Lo's not 60!!! She's a very spritely 59.

Anonymous said...

I can appreciate being outside of an inside joke as easily as the next guy... glad to give satan a laugh....

I'm sure that no matter what Jennifer Lowenstein looks like, you look fine... besides, I'm not one of those who finds physical perfection to be an asset...I like signs of age and maturity...I don't want to see that all hidden or covered or altered!

So...do you have a house???

R

Satan said...

Sorry, I forgot we were being serious for a sec.

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PS. I'm not laughing AT you...

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Diana Crabtree said...

I didn't see them as inside jokes, because they are on my site, and you had said you had read it. I didn't intend it in an exclusionary way, I was just using my razor blade sharp humor ;)

And so you know, when Satan teases a person they are in on the joke too, so don't misunderstand.

Satan said...

100 *Happy 100th*

Diana Crabtree said...

And Satan I am right, right?

Satan said...

Damn - you got in before me *grin*

Diana Crabtree said...

YAYAYAYAYAYAY! 100 comments I feel so popular!

When I ask if I am right I mean I am in on the jokes about my self talk right (I hope so, because I am laughing)

Satan said...

You are absolutely right Ms Crabtree, I'd never exclude anyone. Everyone is welcome in Hell! I'm rarely comfortable making fun of people and will only poke fun if I think they're up to it. It leads to some misunderstandings sometimes, as the written word is only capable of, but I'm always quick to apologise.

Diana Crabtree said...

"Diana, do you want to laugh when Satan teases you? You do? OK. Sometimes we need a laugh huh?"

Anonymous said...

I don't feel the least bit excluded, really.... your razor blade remains sharp as ever...
I trust you'll have a good rest of the evening...

--------------------------------

I want to burn the circus tent
I want to crash your party dress

I want it all to make some sense
But I’m cool if it never does

I want to be with you on this ride
Rub these wounds and make them shine

I want it all to work out fine
But I’m cool if it never does....

R

Satan said...

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, you little comment whore you!

Satan said...

And other times we need a hug. It's a complete service...

*gives Diana a hug then a wedgie*

Diana Crabtree said...

Did you just call me a comment whore?

Diana Crabtree said...

Satan if you made that guy leave I am going Manolo shopping!

Satan said...

LMAO, No, I said "comment more". I like posts with lots of comments.

Satan said...

He didn't leave because of me! I think he was tired, he'll be back!

Diana Crabtree said...

His humor might be bigger than yours, but you've got more stamina ;)

Satan said...

For a Hundred post day, I'd go all night baby!

Diana Crabtree said...

I just realized something...Richard isn't real, he is one of the characters like I had met before!

Satan said...

Really??? Someone from inside our office...

Diana Crabtree said...

Yes! Do you have an office in CA?

Anonymous said...

No...Richard is very real....and he has to be in court first thing in the morning to try a felony criminal case, so he's actually working.....

Diana, sleep well....

Richard
ocean_crimson@yahoo.com

Satan said...

CA, were's that... Our office is in Sydney. But, if it's the same IP as mine, I know exactly who it was...

Satan said...

I believe that he's telling the truth... All the people who would pull a prank like that have left the office for the day...

Anonymous said...

It's not the same IP....CA is California.... about 40 miles north of San Diego....

R

Diana Crabtree said...

CA is California, thats the IP

I was kidding really (You are so right...the written word does not show tone of voice!)

So you were thinking it was the same person as before? Do they all work in your office?

Satan said...

about 40 miles north of San Diego.... *chuckles* that's so much clearer now. Thank you.

Diana Crabtree said...

Well Richard, if you aren't a cruel prankster who mocks the obese, then my e-mail is in my blogger profile.

Satan said...

@ Diana - not all, but the two biggest bastards do. They're very funny people when they try! I thought it was MacDave as Cheryl (and all of her characters) isn't in today...

Anonymous said...

Dear Diana...

I will say this, and then close for the evening....I don't mock anyone. I don't do "cruel prankster"... I'll locate your email in your blogger profile as you suggested....

Congrats on hitting 125....

Goodnight....

Richard in Cardiff-By-the-Sea, Ca

Diana Crabtree said...

Goodnight Richard- Knock em Dead tomorrow

Satan said...

Awwww... Aint that sweet.

















sorry that was mocking, wasn't it!

Anonymous said...

Thank you Diana....unfortunately, we'll go down in flames. I will buy a new tie at lunch so I look really good standing next to my guy at sentencing....

Richard

Diana Crabtree said...

The IP is from California, I was being self-depracating (only a bully would compliment my writing)

I don't know how much you want to tell me, but I enjoy most of the pages of the characters that communicate amongst eachother. I have grown very curious about which are the same people (and Alura Marmalade is hot!)

Diana Crabtree said...

Richard-

Just smile pretty and answer all questions with "Aardvark"

(I made that idea up)

Diana Crabtree said...

Uh oh...a DEFENSE lawyer?

Satan said...

Your telling Me! She's such a honey!

I could give you a run down on who's who but then I know that Satan's site would be decimated. That's what happended to the first MacDave, he gave away information about one of his fellow attackers and the rest is history!!!!



PS. I hope the tie says "No judge he's not a serial killer, he just looks bad next to me"

Satan said...

I need to take off as well, today's been a real pleasure.

For tommorrow morning Diana, don't talk to yourself nicely, Just say "Aardvark" and when you feel that warm happy feeling, try getting up!

Diana Crabtree said...

I figured that was the case...oh well

No, the tie says "Aardvark"

Diana Crabtree said...

Hey Satan I don't know if you know what you did for me tonight.

I was able to laugh enough that I calmed down, and was able to come up with a genius idea for a theme!

I mean it.

Richard's comments didn't hurt either

Satan said...

All part of the service Me Lady, *Satan tips hat* Of course, beware people you meet on the Internet, but he seems nice.

Don't tell me, the Theme is "AARDVARK's and their influence on comtemporary art movements"

Satan said...

comtemporary - it's a new art movement. It's about art found on dot com's

Diana Crabtree said...

Thank you Satan. I am aware.

I am disappointed...have you seen my theme idea somewhere before?

Good night

*smack* <--a kiss or a slap in the face????

Diana Crabtree said...

comtemporary, oh no!

Satan said...

Night

(I'll take the slap in the face - I like it rough, grrrrrr)

Diana Crabtree said...

:)

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