Sunday, December 17, 2006

I see how people become alcoholics

I had 2 and a half beers.

I feel great.

I feel on top of the world.

I feel like I could hold out for a better love match, and get it.

I feel like I could get a better job.

I feel like I could get in shape.

I feel special.

I I should be careful.


elvira black said...

Diana, I just read several of your most recent posts and can really relate. Though I never had the desire to have children, if I did I would want to stay home with them too. I know how being bipolar can affect career choices--I stuck with one company for over 20 years, which turned out in the end to be a good thing because they had great benefits. But my being bipolar did derail me many times, and probably hindered me from getting further ahead than I did and taking more risks.

I also know what it's like to compromise in a relationship. I moved in with my ex-b/f right after college and stayed with him for 20 years. Looking back, there were red flags from the start, but I didn't heed them. We did have some good times, but the fact that the sex (for me) got old quickly was not a good sign. Things went downhill from there, not with a bang, but a whimper.

Anyway, it's great that you know what you want and feel that you must think carefully about your choices. I wish you health, wealth and happiness!

Diana Crabtree said...

Thanks for your empathy Elvira.

I feel like I should listen closely to your relationship story. As it is right now, Charles and I may have a relationship that can be transitioned into a friendship, if I let it go on as it is, we could end and not want to be friends.

Thanks for the good wishes :)