Thursday, August 18, 2005

Please tell this woman I love her


Greetings
Originally uploaded by DianaCrabtree.
Please tell her I am sorry for all I have done to hurt her.

Please tell her I will cope with my anxiety using medication, therapy, and excercise instead of food.

Please tell her I don't want her to feel tired like she did at this weight.

Please tell her I don't want her to feel invisible like she did at this weight.

Please tell her I will try hard to not be this weight again, but tell her I will love her, even if I do.

mood: good.

I had a serving (3/4 cup) of cereal, a banana, and a cucumber salad today (and some coffee) and I feel fine. Maybe I CAN do this.

32 comments:

Henry said...

Hey, if I wasn't married, I'd shag ya!

Diana Crabtree said...

LMAO!

I never thought I'd respond to such a statement like this, but thanks henry- thats sweet

FluffyBunnyCakes said...

Yeah, I'm with henry... Great Rack!

Diana Crabtree said...

I had originally intended this picture to be motivation to keep from getting to this weight again, but it is nice to know that at least one man, and one rabbit, would find me attractive :)

Atomic Bombshell said...

Holy crap... That chick is HAWT!!!

Satan said...

I was expecting that rabbit to be stepped on for that one. You look like you're having a great lark in that photo. What? Someone ask you to cook?

Diana Crabtree said...

...and one atomic bombshell ;)

Diana Crabtree said...

My closeted flamer roommate was taking the picture

Diana Crabtree said...

Can you guess my feelings about him?

Satan said...

Awww, but you're smiling...

Diana Crabtree said...

Shoot, the smile gives me away- the gesture is prophetic maybe

Truth is I love how I look posed that way, I think a sweet smile and a flick off captures my personality most accurately

Satan said...

All you need now is one of those hats with the pretend arrow through it. Maybe you are wearing one and it's just out of frame.

Diana Crabtree said...

No, I am wearing a beer helmet (a helmet with a beer on each side attached to a tube to drink from)

Satan said...

Ah, the good ol' Foam Dome!

I think that's traditionally part of the national dress of Australia.

Unfortunately the only 'cool' hat I get to wear is a dunces cap.

Diana Crabtree said...

Are you wearing one right now? And a cactus?

Satan said...

I'm actually sitting on one right now. I'll let you guess if I man the cap or the cactus.

Satan said...

I'm actually sitting on one right now. I'll let you guess if I man the cap or the cactus.

Diana Crabtree said...

I think spammers can sit on a cactus covered unce cap

Satan said...

They're rife at the moment. What do they think they're achieving? It's not like we're gong to follow their stupid links.

Diana Crabtree said...

Whats up with that? I am no longer getting 400 hits a day from the bush indictment post, I don't understand where they are coming from!

I actually did get tricked by one, a kid just wrote "Hi" or something, and I went to the site, which was a normal blog, not selling anything, so I think he was using spam as a way to get hits

Satan said...

I occasionally do that with site, I call it Satans promotional tour : ) But I always have a chat to the person, see what they're like, if they have a sense of humour. I guess it's not really spamming, spammers are the worst... them and lurkers. Why do people repeatedly come back to my site but never make a comment. Geez that annoys me.

Diana Crabtree said...

Thats not spamming, like you said, it's promoting. As long as you write a real comment, not "hi"

People (like me) who visit your site without commenting are entertained by it, but might not be able to come up with anything to say. After lurking for awhile they will probably build up the courage. Instead of calling them "lurkers" call them "fans"

-your biggest lurker

Satan said...

Nah, Lurkers (that's what I'll call them) are the pits. Look at Tuppy on my site. She's never got anything to say but I always make something of it. I can't remember a time when she wrote more than 5 words, usually she writes 1 or 2. It's not that hard.

Diana Crabtree said...

I would be intimidated if I didn't know you.

Satan said...

Why? The voice of the my 'posts' doesn't exactly sound serious.

rob said...

Fell into your blog through Henry's site. He keeps leading me to interesting, eeven amazing people. Although a lot of the posts are apparently from people you know/who know you and jest. I don't know you yet, but I like what I hear/what I see. You are an extremely interesting person, dealing with your ghosts and yet being able to expressing them. You are not fat, don't let anyone make you think so, mostly you. You are a big woman and if losing some pounds (or should we call them euro-pounds now?) makes you feel good, do it. But don't focus on losing weight exclusively. I have changed my diet a little as of late, a breakfast of cereal and dry fruit once in a while, instead of my usual egg-and-sausage-on-a-bagel, then a huge salad for lunch and then fart trhough the afternoon ... I think the farting is the greatest excecise. You are beautiful as you are and as you allow yourself to be.
PS. You are hereby informed that by the frigging er blogging powers vested in me you are linked to the Blogcrete Jungle. Be well, rob

Satan said...

Why do I hate it when you go to bed without saying good night. I know, because I sit here F5ing my life away. Well, Good Night!

Diana Crabtree said...

Sataaaaaaaaaaaan! I did say goodnight, it just took me a long time to come up with the words I wanted to say (as you will read I couldn't come up with them)

We are SO EVEN on the Chris Finch comment!

madlyme.com said...

i lost a lot of weight when i was on the south beach diet. i was around 185 and went down to 145 in 6 months. of course during my recent depressive episode, i gained 10 lbs back. i think you're lovely.

Diana Crabtree said...

Thank you Rob. I LUUUUUUUUUV your comment, it is very flattering!

My favorite thing about this post is people seem to think it's a picture of me now, when it's actually my highest weight. To have so many people say "your not fat" or "who cares?" makes me feel great, like the world wont end if I can't control it.

Yay, thanks! I will check out your site :)

Satan said...

Hehehehe - Night cutie ;)

Diana Crabtree said...

Katinkab, I like the south beach diet, it seems very healthy.

10 pounds stinks, but its so much easier to lose than 40! I am really impressed!

Thanks for the kind compliment, please remember it for yourself too :) I hope your no longer depressed :)

Thanks so much for commenting! I want to check out your site and search for tips on how you did it! tee hee