Did you ever see that show "clean sweep"? On the show a person with a SEVERE mess problem gets 1 room redone by the hosts. Imagine the "before" shots on that show and then look at my "after"
I spoke with my psychiatrist this week, becuase I am so happy and productive, I assumed it must be mania. He asked me some questions and said "you are not in a manic or hypomanic state" which means I am actually happy! My inability to make my house livable was my main reason for seeking therapy in the first place, and look at it now!
If you were to ask me "Diana, where is your green belt?" I could walk straight to where it is and put it on! Before I might have "an idea" but I would still have to pull out some boxes and dig a bit, so instead I would just skip the belt.
I can see so clearly why I sabotauge myself in so many ways, if I met a man I liked, I could have never let him see my room! If I found a good opportunity I wouldn't have the time to persue it, because I was tethered to my house, having to overhaul it monthly, just to manage what was in it!
I am so thankful that I started this blog, sought therapy, and tried Risperdal, I may have the life I always dreamed of!
I feel almost overwhelmed. I have so much life I can actually live now!
It won't remain this clean, but there is a place for everything now, so returning the whole place to this state will take 3 hours, not 3 weeks.
I still have more to do, PLENTY to do, to be able to mentally account for everything I own and be able to find it (that is my goal- and I am damn close!) But I did a good job of compartmentalizing the projects, so one day off I go through my office supplies, the next week I go through my decorations. The last thing I have to do today is carry all of this downstairs (whew!) can you believe this was all in that tiny little bedroom???
I had to take these pictures as a celebration. You take pictures at a graduation or wedding, I see this too as a life changing event.
mood: over the moon, SOOOOO proud!