Tuesday, June 28, 2005

When life becomes tough, the tough become life

Thats a Pakistani phrase my ex once translated for me. I like it because it doesn't get that billy ocean song in your head, even though it's in there anyway.

I layed in bed but know I won't be able to sleep tonight, so why lay in bed stewing in anxiety? If I am up I can work on the ad for a new roommate. Or at least get my thoughts in order.

This couldn't have happened last month when I had 4 days off a week? No, it all has to happen tonight, right before a 2 day (I just did a 3 day) and I will only have 2 days off after, too much usually. And why the fucking phone? If I could have my cell with me I could get stuff done while gone, FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

Fuck fuck fuck

I am fine with her moving, mostly because I have had plenty of emotional time to prepare, but she wants to move in a month (could have told me sooner) and why today? WHY? AHHHHHHHHHHH And I am really not excited about adjusting to a new roommate, or them adjusting to me. I liked having an introvert, someone who didn't want to be all up in my life, but still......

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH is all thats in my head. I feel like running in a circle. I don't want to do this much yet, I just want to scream. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay, I guess I am not becoming life like I should right now, I just don't know where to start. I should tell her I need 2 months, the chances of getting a quality roommate in one month are really decreased. I don't even know what to post for rent cost. WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Money was just getting better, so much was getting better. Ahhhhshafglksjerh gakrignh v;

mood: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

37 comments:

Satan said...

Way to verbalise!

I think you should try the running in a circle. It can't hurt - wait - move the furniture first.

The dog wanted to become a pirate. Who the hell am I to stand in his way. We're trying to find a parrot small enough to fit on his shoulder ; )

He's old, blind and it was developing ulcers, so it wouldn't drain fluid inside the eye properly. It was him or the eye. We choose him : )

Diana Crabtree said...

I like that you chose him- I bet he does too

Diana Crabtree said...

And that is nice that you guys let him feel free to be what he is

Satan said...

It wasn't a fore gone conclusion. He's 18. We hate to see the old fella in pain but the specialist was convinced he could do the job.

Satan said...

Yar me-hearty, en how's the ahh zounds in yer ed goin.

Diana Crabtree said...

I am so happy it worked out :) I am so glad that you have this rock star specialist too. Puppies and Kitties should live forever in my opinion.

Diana Crabtree said...

Was that you or poochie talking there? I am doing better, but still high strung

Satan said...

Ey thar's right, day should be liv'n forever.

PS. the guy charges like a rock star. But I can live with that.

Satan said...

Hehehe

I think next time you're at the specialist you should tell him/her that you were speaking one of satan's dog and he sounded like a pirate. Just to see where it goes. : )

Satan said...

did I say specialist... hurmph... I meant therapist...

Diana Crabtree said...

My kitty was old and had to go to the kitty emergency room (complete with a kitty oxygen mask) I would have paid anything to keep him alive (if he was happy- which I hope he was)

I am glad you had the option, who likes to lose a family member

Satan said...

It's so funny, awww kinda funny, to see a vet hospital which treats it's patients as human as their owners do. I'm sure kitty is doing fine no matter what, just flowing back to the universe. It's a nice thought.

I'd make you a cuppa, but it'd be cold by the time I got it there for you.

Diana Crabtree said...

I dont know what a cuppa is

Satan said...

Cup of Tea

Diana Crabtree said...

I think its funny too. I also think that those animal rights people have an interesting point, what says our lives are more important than theirs? I still eat meat and wear leather and take medication and use cosmetics tested on animals but I see that point.

Diana Crabtree said...

Aww thanks Satan.

I am sorry I am so dark tonight, I think it will end up being a new chapter, I just could have used more time (or have been told NOT the day before I work again)

Diana Crabtree said...

I think I am going to try to sleep again (I imagine your banter has helped- in fact, I know it has!) I may be back in a few minutes?

Anonymous said...

You really need to grow up. Stop thinking about how YOU feel about her moving and think about her for forty seconds.
Gee. You are so self-centered it's unbelievable. No wonder you have so many emotional problems.

Diana Crabtree said...

Satan, do you think Richard has joined us again?

Satan said...

I AM THE HIGH DARK LORD SATAN, ALL DARKNESS IS LIGHT TO ME FOR I AM THE EPITOME OF DARKNESS.

I rarely see timing as accidental. It's happened now for the 'right' reason. As humans we don't alsways like the right reasons though.

Satan said...

Whatever or whoever it is.

Isn't this you're place to talk about you. It's not a representation of how you act with your flat mate.

Diana Crabtree said...

Satan, please save your wrath for the Bush Administration, I am not concerned.

Satan said...

No the caps was for you saying sorry about being in a dark mood. Just oa joke.

The second was for your other vistor.

Diana Crabtree said...

Thanks by the way, I just want to preserve your smityness for things like eye ulcers :)

Diana Crabtree said...

Okay, I bow down and agree with you Satan. I really do, this will be a good thing, and even if it's not I will have to make it a good thing.

Satan said...

*shrugs*

I have specialists for that. Just take one problem at a time, the first being sleep.

Satan said...

Hey, exactly, now you're getting the hang of it. Once you're free and open to that suggestion, things start taking care of themselves. Even if you have a bad day.

Satan said...

Hey, exactly, now you're getting the hang of it. Once you're free and open to that suggestion, things start taking care of themselves. Even if you have a bad day.

Satan said...

There I go repeating myself again

Diana Crabtree said...

Thanks Satan...you really are a prince














of darkness

Satan said...

No worries mate,

Bill's in the mail. ; )

Although I've told bill a thousand times to stay out of the mail...

Sleep well.

Diana Crabtree said...

:) zzzzzzzz

Satan said...

Everybody panic, there's a freakin bee in here.

AHhh, Ahhhhhhhhh, ohhhh, I like it there, OUCHHHHH, Help....

Diana Crabtree said...

Don't kill it, it may be an insect but who says we are more important than an insect? Who says our comfort is more important it's life (will read your response tomorrow- or in 10 minutes- hope for the former)

Satan said...

It is living happily in my stomach.

*sting me you little...

Satan said...

What?? Did you want something a little deeper than that?

Hehehe

Satan said...

What?? Did you want something a little deeper than that?

Hehehe