I have had 5 beers. I just hung out with my crew and had a great time. My FO is pretty, slim, and blonde, and she wants to hang out with me. At the end of the trip she is going out with another cute girl (with implants may I mention) and she wants me to come out with them.
Is this girl shallow or boring? No. She is smart and funny. I have no reason to not want to become good friends with her except horrible, shallow, disgusting, unfair jealousy.
I am going to go this week, and hopefully I will have a dring and chill out. I think I may be a bit more attractive than I realize, but this girl is still in a comletely different attractiveness league as I am. I dont take that to mean she is better than me or I am better than her, but it leads to moments of unbelievable awkwardness as the wing man comes to talk to you or even worse, you are alone while the "hot girl" is dancing with some guy- and you feel hideous, even if your not.
I have awful flashbacks of a time I went out dancing with a charlize theron look-alike, I may as well have been invisible, and she certianly wasn't. Half the night she was being hit on, and it's not that I wanted to be hit on, I just didn't want to be reminded that she was being hit on not me. To make it worse she was a bit into herself and this girl is really cool. I don't want hot friends do you hear me! Its not abou twho a person is on the inside its appearance only! I fly with her for 2 weeks so expect alot of posts full of envy and shallowness.
mood: tipsy, envious, and pleased (new friend?) :)