Sunday, November 27, 2005

Not Depressed!

Today I felt...NOT DEPRESSED!

Oh lord almighty THANK YOU lord almighty! It wasn't a particularly good day, but I wasn't depressed today!

Unhappiness can seem like such a burden unless you put it in context next to the serious stuff. Maybe what I needed was a month or so of mild depression and then a week or two of the juicy moderate stuff to make me appreciate non-depression again. I will take a lifetime of being unhappy much of the time, as long as I don't have to feel that horrible weight of being depressed.

I hope that tomorrow can be as good. I will do what I did last night, I went to sleep listening to the Dalai Lama's "Art of Happiness" book on tape instead of BBC world service (world poverty, war, the leader of my beloved country doing his best to destroy it and the rest of the world.) I think a message of hope before bed might be a bit more soothing.

I slept with an electric heat pad. A fire hazard? Sure, but it relaxed my muscles and I slept nice.

I woke up at 5:30. For some reason getting up early makes me happy, that doesn't mean I can get myself up on my days off of course. And I drank plenty of coffee.

I didn't eat too much today, missed breakfast (oops) but had a nice big black bean burrito for lunch. It's funny but I am not hugely hungry today, even though I didn't eat alot. Nice.

I am going to try to do all of that tomorrow. I will go to sleep with the heat pad and book on tape. I will try to get up earlier than 11, and I will have breakfast, but a healthy one with a nice homemade latte. I will also drink a lot of water and use my SAD light (grey winter weather is shown to contribute to depression)

HOORAY!

I don't care today that I have a stupid disorder. I care that I was blessed with a day free from it!

HOORAY!

mood: OK, I guess. JUST KIDDING! I feel not depressed! WHOOPIE!

21 comments:

Nikky Egland said...

Glad you arent depressed today :) with that kind of thing, its just taking it one day at a time, huh?

Rich said...

You know... I feel like I've commented here already today... but I don't see where I have...

Oh well, I think it's super you aren't depressed today.

Diana Crabtree said...

This was yesterday, but guess what. I'm not depressed today either. Yessssssss!

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Rich said...

Oh well, I think it's super you aren't depressed yesterday.

WV: laugh my fucking delete blog off (TeeHee - I like that one)

Diana Crabtree said...

Thanks Nikki. You are SO right! I need to be remided that it's one day at a time.

Rich said...

I like to get really wired on drugs and take three or four days at a time... doesn't help with depression for some reason though.

Rich said...

Well! I guess that's goodnight?!

Diana Crabtree said...

No, it wasn't. I was writing you a thoughtful e-mail. BUT, if you want me to go...so be it

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Rich said...

Dooooooooooont gooooooooo!

*latches around your leg so you can't leave*

WV: not for real sorry people

Diana Crabtree said...

That was the answer I wanted yay!

WV: Even you guys see Diana worships

(I can't really say I worship you anymore if you arent Satan, it's just not as funny :( )

Rich said...

I know, it's the same with the drug comment up above... there's something that's just not-so-funny about average old Rich saying it.

Oh well!

Diana Crabtree said...

I don't think it's less funny, you just can't play it off as "I was in character"

Rich said...

Yeah, I have to own up to much drug dependancy problems now...

they say that's the first step... Yay! I made the first step... Let's have a party and get high to to celibrate. : )

wv: okabgoo - what you will say when I offer you your 24th shot of alcohol.

Diana Crabtree said...

Did you ever stop to think of the fact that your worshippers (speaking of drug dependancy LOL) will think this is all another prank? That you are actually just on vacation?

Rich said...

Yeah, sure, but they're going to find out soon enough...

...unless I'm playing another prank on you ; )

*SMACK* OOOUUUUCCCCCCHHHHHHH, I was joking... not a prank, there's no stories left... gone! I don't think I could write another funny story at the moment anyway. I get a little into it and 'blah'.

Diana Crabtree said...

Don't say that last part. It makes me SOOOOOOO sad. I think a few weeks of sleeping in your own house with your new ghost friends will lift the funk.

Or maybe you should watch "Lapdancing with Barbie" again

Rich said...

Oooooh yeah! Barbie is hawt, well, she's more plastic than fantastic.

I did say at the moment! I'm sure a few weeks will set things straight.

I see dead people

Diana Crabtree said...

It's a quarter to one. I need to go to bed.

Let's talk about ghosts next time, I LOVE ghosts!

Sleeping Ninjas make Uruguay really Zen, cold, kosher

Rich said...

Coolness.

Thanks again for hanging out with me. You make me chucklesome. I appreciate it.

Sleep well

Diana Crabtree said...

You too.

Rich said...

Thanks you I will. Zzzzzzzzzzzz.