Tuesday, October 31, 2006

SO Upset!

SO get this shit!

My roommate and I were supposed to go out for halloween, and then we had this big fight. Then I had made tenative plans with my sister Linda. So a few days later my roomate says "I dont have anything to do for Halloween" and so I invite her with Linda and I.

I call two days ago to Linda, I leave her a message asking if my roommate can come, and then we can all go out afterward. Linda never calls me and I realize at 5 tonight, Its fucking Halloween. I call Linda and she says "I thought you were going out with your roommate"

Fucking roommate has made other plans! All my fucking friends are fucking married and my fucking boyfriend has left me to go to another fucking country! This is worse than having nothing to do for one holiday. This brings back the feelings back from when I would see my dad on holidays with no friends to make plans with. This brings me back to Halloween 2001 when I hadn't made any friends up at college, and I had to suffer the humiliation of having nothing to do on Halloween.

I am so upset. I could call my friends, but I would be inviting myself to be the third wheel with them and their husbands. I could go hang out with my grandparents and father, but when I feel like a stressed out loser I don't need my father to help the situation.

I just want to call Linda and say "why the hell didn't you call me and tell me?- now I have no plans and I feel like a COMPLETE FUCKING LOSER" I am so upset right now that I want to throw things.

I am going to take a sleeping pill, Valerian. Unhealthy choice? Probably. I have to get through this night. If I take the sleeping pill I can just go to bed and try to forget it ever happened.

I am sure everything is okay, but this just stabs me in the heart. It brings me back to very painful times in my life. I didn't even want to do anything tonight. I am so upset. I am hoping the sleeping pill will calm me down, so I can get my head together and realize I am not the hugest loser in the world, I just did a bad job of making plans.

UPDATE-
I ate and took the Valerian root. I feel better, fine really.

27 comments:

ticharu said...

Lonely on Halloween, what a drag! Next year you come to our house! :)
We failed to carve the pumpkins so we'll save them till next year just for YOU!

Seriously though, any holiday spent alone is difficult. I think it's the psychic energy of so many people partying.

Diana Crabtree said...

Aww Ticharu, how sweet! Thanks!

I LOVE carving pumpkins, so I'll see you next year :)

Rich said...

You do realise that You and Ticharu are living in the same neck of the woods. You lieterally could have just driven over to his place and carved the pumpkins with him, his wife and his kids.

Hahahaha, that's so sweet.

And of course, I'll keep you company anytime :)

G3T Films said...

I wanna mess you blog up like we used to...

*does cartwheel*

ymcuargl: You my cute unbelievably amazing righteous girl (are) lovely :)

G3T Films said...

I'm pretty sure I can do a backflip... wait, already did that. You have the photographic evidence *huh* It was never photoshopped. See, I'll do it again...

*crash* Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

OK, maybe it was photoshopped.

crpmeeed: Cause real pain, meee dumb

Rich said...

ppmsueu: Prodigious Pain, Might sue U

Rich said...

dzhkrc: Diana? Zome hopeless krackpot requires confirmation.

Rich said...

Fine! Be that way Diana! That's it, I'm going home... damn, still got work to do. Um, That's it, I'm staying right here, and there's nothing you can do to stop me. Well you could put on comment moderation and just ignore me, but you wouldn't do that to me, or would you, maybe you would, I am spamming your site with an enormous run on sentenace, which I sure will end shortly, but not yet, but now.

qzhdnww: Query ztill here Diana. Not worrying, waiting.

Rich said...

sbpmj: Some bloggers post much junk.

Rich said...

You know, this was a lot more fun when there was two of us doing it. That back and forth flow we always had was most endearing. I know, maybe I'll post as you too.

Diana said...

You're an idiot

Rich said...

You used to be much nicer!

Diana said...

That was back when you weren't such an Idiot.

Rich said...

I'm not sure I like my version of you. I don't treat myself very nice at all.

Diana said...

Too late, I'm here now and there's nothing you can do about it.

Rich said...

*takes out shotgun* Oh yeah?

Diana said...

You'll only be hurting yourself. I am after just you pretending to be Diana.

Rich said...

I'm willing to live with that!

Diana said...

Don't you mean 'die' with that?

Rich said...

But at least this will all end!

Rich said...

You really ARE an idiot.

Diana said...

It's nice to see we agree, YOU really ARE an idiot. And that just goes to prove it!

Rich said...

*bang*

Anonymous said...

Thank god that's all over.

Diana said...

Shut up Anonymous!

...wait, why am I still here...

Rich?

Hello?

Great, he killed his own dominant personality and left me in the guise of an American women.

At least I have nice tits!

Diana Crabtree said...

I really do have a great rack

Rich said...

INNNNNDEED!