Well at least I got out of the house

I got a random call from my cousin tonight asking to crash at my house. I didn't want to bother my roommate while we caught up so I suggested a coffee shop or bar, and leaned towards a bar because of last night and the extrememly boring day I had today.

It was fun, my cousin and I had a real bond a few years ago, so it was fun to catch up. It was also fun to be drinking, and out of the house. I really need to go out more I have decided (having unmarried friends is a great start to having that)

The downside of the evening was being out with a man close to my age, no men would approach me. I think I saw one guy look at me, but thats the most play I could get. My ego needs a boy right now. I think I might be ready to start dating again, or at least to get out, drinking and being seen.

Its funny that I ended a friendship with my neighbor, who drinks too much, because he drinks too much, when what I want is to go out drinking more. But going out with him seems pointless, because our conversations are boring, and sex with him is weird, so I am going out with a man, meaning I wont meet any men, and I cant even have sex at the end of the night, that's just not fun.

I want to go out again soon. My life is so boring I cant believe it. I am un-depressed, but have the depressed habits, I need to change my habits before I become depressed again.

He's in trouble again

Awwww, I don't know why I am defending this guy who cheats on his wife, but the basketball coach I chatted with on the plane is in trouble again, and I think it's just sad.

He's been suspended for anti-semetic remarks, but what the remarks were along the lines of "Jewish people stick together" and "they have great security on the israeli airline."

From the articles defending him it sounds like alot of his inner circle are Jewish (including an ex wife) so I think what he said was probably very unsophisticated, but malice free.

I felt this feeling like I could help him when I met him, I wish I had his number so I could say something, I am not sure what. In the end its dumb that I thought I could help him, maybe that is his personality, he seemed so raw and vulnerable, but in an endearing way. I hope he doesn't turn to alcohol or drugs to get through this.