I'm not really drunk, I just drunk a few.
I just came back from an S&M themed bar, a favorite place for me to go dancing. I like it for a few resons, one, the play a lot of german industrial type music which I really like. Two, the people there are really nerdy so I don't feel self concious. Three, the people there are outcasts, so I really relate to them on the inside. Four, the people there are facinating.
One of these facinating people was slave Anthony. He kissed my boot a year or so ago which was really funny to me. He gave me a piece of paper saying all the reasons I should own a slave, like that he would clean my house for no money, doesn't sound so bad to me. We chatted with him for quite a bit, he seemed surprisingly normal. He is (of course) an accountant in real life.
My sister Linda and I sat analyzing him, and she made a great point...we are two 30 year olds analyzing a 50 year old guy who knows what he likes and dislikes. Its weird to us but so what?
One thing I observed is how I become more and more mainstream as I age. Thats another thing I like about this place. It makes me still feel young and wild, not the normal, normal, normal person that I am today. I am so close to the mainstream. I am a flight attendant for god's sake! Airline people are so conservative and normal.
I had a fun night. I don't feel bad about the person I am becoming, nor do I feel bad about the person I am at the core. I just am what I am, and tonight allowed me to examine that.
Oh, and by the way there was also a legless man who spent most of the night laid on a stage while girls danced on top of him.